your world is my world
your fight is my fight
your breath is my breath
your heart?
i love you Ujer Bieber!! :DD
your fight is my fight
your breath is my breath
your heart?
i love you Ujer Bieber!! :DD
12/27/11
12/23/11
12/20/11
LOVE
it all started with a simple day, simple dress, simple smile and a simple talk. Turned out to be the not so simple relationship.
"hai.." i turned back to the person standing behind me with a simple smile and a simple hi. he looked surprised, i was embarrased,turing my head back to the front,embarrassed, facing my coolest friend on earth but i do not mind she does not think me the same way, as i know i am not. it was somewhere in the early of July, i was so bored, waiting in zigzag lines, to take a picture for our matric card.
i heard the grinned of the person behind me eventhough he was not saying any word, so i braved myself, turning myself back again, "siapa nama?... oh Ujer. " it went something like that. the three of us talked about schools, backgrounds, experience and woven with a little bit of over excitement, as the early half an hour already, i can sense that we three have chemistry. the day ended up just, like that...
it was so awesome our class rept. to get the numbers for the whole class, the girls started to cheering for trying out to prank their favourite "someone" or whatsoever ok i exagerrated this part but i know mestilah ada kan.
anyway, i used to use a Vivaz phone, it is a HD touchscreen phone which i bought it myself, by my own first salary and i LOVEEEEEE the phone so much. but long story short, i added up all the contact numbers into my phone and the first person to have texted me was Ujer. I was excited, as i know.. he is so AWESOME! always got me cracked into his own creatively made up jokes.. i love it. our relationship as friends, grow fonder and fonder, and alas.. after all the scandals people put up and we keep on denying it but it never got into our mind to part away from each other. one day, i IM him at facebook. as usual.. about our story, it's not something that i wanted to share here.. But i love him. and i still DO.
he was so sweet,yet he is still now..
whoever that gets to be with him, is the LUCKIEST GIRL on earth.seriously.. he always give me secret recipe cakes.. always got confused between the one i loath and loathe, blackforest cake or chocolate indulgences.. i know it is not cheap. what i am happy the most, his parents are so fine and in fact, were happy to find out about our relationship. they take it as a good thing as long as he stays respect to me and perform in his studies. was such an easy for him. not for me. i could not complaint much, i understand as a daughter, in Islam, a daughter or a girl is like a symbol of dignity. it is not that i am dirty, but they just want to take a good care of me like save the best for last.. which is to my future husband and most importantly for Allah. i am their responbility.. things like this lingered into my mind.. i changed my mind several of times and asked for break up..many times.MANY... i know that he is deeply hurt. i know for the others, they will see i am the bad one in this relationship. what i had learnt, never judge someone without YOU being at her/his place. Especially if you had never been into any relationship. I have my own personal reason for this and sometimes, not all things we can share to others.. do i have to tell the whole world ,THE REASON ? will it change the situation or people's perception? i have to learn not to thing much about what other people say and just stick to my virtue. they know nothing..they just say things as they are so bored of minding their own business..
all i want to say is, i am ashamed with Allah. his parents and family.. i just want him to stay as my friend. my BEST FRIEND like a normal one.. that occasinally express their feeling.. not all the time. i know he feels it all the time. urgh.. i sounded like a fussy one. i love him.really do.. but when he does things that get into my nerves, i tend to get mad.SO mad that i sometimes feel like changing course and runaway from him. the moral of the story, never to get into a serious committed relationship if you thing you are not ready yet. love your parents that have raised you for (state your age) and love yourself
"hai.." i turned back to the person standing behind me with a simple smile and a simple hi. he looked surprised, i was embarrased,turing my head back to the front,embarrassed, facing my coolest friend on earth but i do not mind she does not think me the same way, as i know i am not. it was somewhere in the early of July, i was so bored, waiting in zigzag lines, to take a picture for our matric card.
i heard the grinned of the person behind me eventhough he was not saying any word, so i braved myself, turning myself back again, "siapa nama?... oh Ujer. " it went something like that. the three of us talked about schools, backgrounds, experience and woven with a little bit of over excitement, as the early half an hour already, i can sense that we three have chemistry. the day ended up just, like that...
it was so awesome our class rept. to get the numbers for the whole class, the girls started to cheering for trying out to prank their favourite "someone" or whatsoever ok i exagerrated this part but i know mestilah ada kan.
anyway, i used to use a Vivaz phone, it is a HD touchscreen phone which i bought it myself, by my own first salary and i LOVEEEEEE the phone so much. but long story short, i added up all the contact numbers into my phone and the first person to have texted me was Ujer. I was excited, as i know.. he is so AWESOME! always got me cracked into his own creatively made up jokes.. i love it. our relationship as friends, grow fonder and fonder, and alas.. after all the scandals people put up and we keep on denying it but it never got into our mind to part away from each other. one day, i IM him at facebook. as usual.. about our story, it's not something that i wanted to share here.. But i love him. and i still DO.
he was so sweet,yet he is still now..
whoever that gets to be with him, is the LUCKIEST GIRL on earth.seriously.. he always give me secret recipe cakes.. always got confused between the one i loath and loathe, blackforest cake or chocolate indulgences.. i know it is not cheap. what i am happy the most, his parents are so fine and in fact, were happy to find out about our relationship. they take it as a good thing as long as he stays respect to me and perform in his studies. was such an easy for him. not for me. i could not complaint much, i understand as a daughter, in Islam, a daughter or a girl is like a symbol of dignity. it is not that i am dirty, but they just want to take a good care of me like save the best for last.. which is to my future husband and most importantly for Allah. i am their responbility.. things like this lingered into my mind.. i changed my mind several of times and asked for break up..many times.MANY... i know that he is deeply hurt. i know for the others, they will see i am the bad one in this relationship. what i had learnt, never judge someone without YOU being at her/his place. Especially if you had never been into any relationship. I have my own personal reason for this and sometimes, not all things we can share to others.. do i have to tell the whole world ,THE REASON ? will it change the situation or people's perception? i have to learn not to thing much about what other people say and just stick to my virtue. they know nothing..they just say things as they are so bored of minding their own business..
all i want to say is, i am ashamed with Allah. his parents and family.. i just want him to stay as my friend. my BEST FRIEND like a normal one.. that occasinally express their feeling.. not all the time. i know he feels it all the time. urgh.. i sounded like a fussy one. i love him.really do.. but when he does things that get into my nerves, i tend to get mad.SO mad that i sometimes feel like changing course and runaway from him. the moral of the story, never to get into a serious committed relationship if you thing you are not ready yet. love your parents that have raised you for (state your age) and love yourself
virology
since i am feeling under the weather these days, i would like to thank Allah for fating the quiz to be postponed to next week. i just could not get the things i am studying into my head right now, feeling so sleepy and heavy headed all the time.. sometimes i do not even realise things i have say.. virology. a vast topic taught in a few times of lecture but thousands to memorize. im just a beginner i know, but urghhhhhhhhh... so many disease, so many genus,species to know.. please bless me with a good health O Allah ! ;( AMIN.
gratified
long time no blog.ngeehee.. The result had got out last week. Alhamdulillah..always be grateful with your GPA because that reflects your effort and the fate that Allah has given to us.. to Uzair and to myself. we did great, i mean both of us, Uzair and I as we helped each other through the ups and downs.. along with our housemates. our houses just have chemistry between the people in these two houses..haha.funny but it is.. I had so many stressful events these days.. mainly, money, relationship, and personal health problems. Now i know how it feels like to be so skint, seeing things but not be able to have it. Christmas is coming ahead in a few days, not that im celebrating it, but i will be celebrating the Christmas Sale feast! haha.. i always love christmas sales.. all pretty pretty things brought out, at low prices.. just so wonderful =,)
for now.. unfortunately, i am in a cold fever. it has been two days, and this is the second time i fall sick since i have been into college. so sadd... i miss ibu (mum). Ibu will always be there by my side, making porridge, and as i am getting bigger, she doesnt care much as she has other priorities to be taken care of ,im okay with it,but having her around in my sight is just fine for me. i love her..the best mother anyone could have. sometimes, we quarrel over disagreement of something, but because she views things, as an experienced viewer.. i should trust her better i know. but what i am glad here, she accepts me for whoever i am. also, ayah.. they both treat me the kindest rational way a parent should care. my parents are not the same as others, but i believe that every other parents would want the same thing from their child. to this pair of parents, scolding them this way is a better way.but for some they think no, it is suppose to be done this way. but the goal, is always the same. to raise their child to be a good man ,that serve benefits to the society and play his role as a khalifah Allah on this world. together, let us give the best to our parents while they are alive, maximize your effort and time for them.
for now.. unfortunately, i am in a cold fever. it has been two days, and this is the second time i fall sick since i have been into college. so sadd... i miss ibu (mum). Ibu will always be there by my side, making porridge, and as i am getting bigger, she doesnt care much as she has other priorities to be taken care of ,im okay with it,but having her around in my sight is just fine for me. i love her..the best mother anyone could have. sometimes, we quarrel over disagreement of something, but because she views things, as an experienced viewer.. i should trust her better i know. but what i am glad here, she accepts me for whoever i am. also, ayah.. they both treat me the kindest rational way a parent should care. my parents are not the same as others, but i believe that every other parents would want the same thing from their child. to this pair of parents, scolding them this way is a better way.but for some they think no, it is suppose to be done this way. but the goal, is always the same. to raise their child to be a good man ,that serve benefits to the society and play his role as a khalifah Allah on this world. together, let us give the best to our parents while they are alive, maximize your effort and time for them.
12/10/11
housemates
i love my housemates. :) i am sorry because i love you guys too much, ahaha. sounds weird.they are weird jugak in their on way... #each one of them , damn i am serious. but i utterly love them and gratified to Allah for giving me chance to meet them and let them carving my path along us, TOGETHER, SIX of us :)
12/1/11
reblog. gelgata apakah??
Salam..anda pernah dengar tak pasal gelgata?. Bukan semua orang tahu fasal ini. Saya pun baru sahaja tahu selepas bertahun-tahun menghadapi masalah ini. Setelah hampir beberapa minit menggunakan Google. Akhirnya saya dapat tahu yang ruam gelgata ini, yang selalu disebutkan oleh orang dulu-dulu mempunyai nama saintifiknya iaitu Urticaria.
Boleh dikatakan saya pada setiap pagi, kalau waktu itu suhu berada pada paras 20 darjah Celcius dan air yang keluar dari pili sejuk pasti saya akan kena gelgata. Ha, sebelum itu. Gelgata ini boleh dibahagikan kepada beberapa sebab dan faktor penyebabnya.
1) Air
2) Suhu
4) Jangkitan kuman
5) Tekanan
5) Alergi
dan beberapa sebab lagi yang telah direkodkan.
Saya pun tak tahu kenapa, tetapi kulit pada badan saya ini boleh dikatakan memang sensitif betul. Kalau sejuk mesti kena gelgata, tapi tidak lah kronik sampai satu badan. Cuma di bahagian sendi tangan dan kaki atau leher. Begitu juga kalau mandi sungai pada pagi hari, cari nahaslah jawabnya. Satu sahaja syarat yang saya tahu untuk mengelakkan dari gelgata ini merebak pada badan saya. Jangan garu.
Tetapi hari sabtu punya cerita, saya kena gelgata satu badan. Ambil masa 3 hari untuk pulih seperti sediakala. Ini saya dapati adalah akibat cuaca sejuk melampau secara tiba-tiba di Perlis. Hujan satu hari tidak berhenti berserta angin sejuk. Maklumlah Perlis punya cuaca berbeza sikit sebab dah menghampiri garisan Jadi. Setelah membaca di Wikipedia, barulah saya tahu. Selama ini saya asyik ingat kalau saya garu, gelgata pasti merebak sebab kuman pada kuku dipindahkan ke bahagian kulit yang lain rupa-rupanya salah.
Apabila cuaca atau suhu sejuk (dalam konteks saya, aquagenic/cold urticaria), kapilari kecil pada dermis akan pecah dan akan menyebabkan edema (pengumpulan bendalir di bawah kulit) yang akan berterusan sehingga bendalir tisu kulit diserap oleh sel sekeliling. Sekarang pasti anda boleh bayang kenapa ada semacam bonggolan yang gatal pada kulit jika berlaku gelgata bukan. Semua kejadian ini dipanggil "inflammatory" yang tidak silap saya dalam bahasa melayu dipanggil rengsa. Seterusnya proses ini diteruskan apabila bendalir "Histamine" dirembeskan yang menjadi pencetus kepada rengsa kulit tadi.
Ni bukan perut aku, ni ambil dari Wikipedia
Logik bukan, jika anda garu dan garu dan garu. Merebaklah ia ke merata tempat, sebab kapilari darah yang kecil pada dermis semakin dipecahkan.
Gelgata seperti saya sebutkan tadi boleh disebabkan oleh pelbagai faktor, namun proses kejadiannya adalah sama. Saya dahulu pernah terkena gelgata yang disebabkan oleh jangkitan kuman setelah baring pada sofa yang tercemar dan kawan saya juga pernah kena yang disebabkan oleh faktor sama setelah mengalihkan pasu bunga. Untuk penawarnya, doktor telah memberikan satu suntikan yang saya rasa anti-histamine.
Sekarang, saya sudah sihat. Boleh hidup macam biasa. Hehe
Boleh dikatakan saya pada setiap pagi, kalau waktu itu suhu berada pada paras 20 darjah Celcius dan air yang keluar dari pili sejuk pasti saya akan kena gelgata. Ha, sebelum itu. Gelgata ini boleh dibahagikan kepada beberapa sebab dan faktor penyebabnya.
1) Air
2) Suhu
4) Jangkitan kuman
5) Tekanan
5) Alergi
dan beberapa sebab lagi yang telah direkodkan.
Saya pun tak tahu kenapa, tetapi kulit pada badan saya ini boleh dikatakan memang sensitif betul. Kalau sejuk mesti kena gelgata, tapi tidak lah kronik sampai satu badan. Cuma di bahagian sendi tangan dan kaki atau leher. Begitu juga kalau mandi sungai pada pagi hari, cari nahaslah jawabnya. Satu sahaja syarat yang saya tahu untuk mengelakkan dari gelgata ini merebak pada badan saya. Jangan garu.
Tetapi hari sabtu punya cerita, saya kena gelgata satu badan. Ambil masa 3 hari untuk pulih seperti sediakala. Ini saya dapati adalah akibat cuaca sejuk melampau secara tiba-tiba di Perlis. Hujan satu hari tidak berhenti berserta angin sejuk. Maklumlah Perlis punya cuaca berbeza sikit sebab dah menghampiri garisan Jadi. Setelah membaca di Wikipedia, barulah saya tahu. Selama ini saya asyik ingat kalau saya garu, gelgata pasti merebak sebab kuman pada kuku dipindahkan ke bahagian kulit yang lain rupa-rupanya salah.
The skin lesions of urticarial disease are caused by an inflammatory reaction in the skin, causing leakage of capillaries in the dermis, and resulting in an edema which persists until the interstitial fluid is absorbed into the surrounding cells.
Urticaria are caused by the release of histamine and other mediators of inflammation (cytokines) from cells in the skin. This process can be the result of an allergic or non-allergic reaction, differing in the eliciting mechanism of histamine release.
Apabila cuaca atau suhu sejuk (dalam konteks saya, aquagenic/cold urticaria), kapilari kecil pada dermis akan pecah dan akan menyebabkan edema (pengumpulan bendalir di bawah kulit) yang akan berterusan sehingga bendalir tisu kulit diserap oleh sel sekeliling. Sekarang pasti anda boleh bayang kenapa ada semacam bonggolan yang gatal pada kulit jika berlaku gelgata bukan. Semua kejadian ini dipanggil "inflammatory" yang tidak silap saya dalam bahasa melayu dipanggil rengsa. Seterusnya proses ini diteruskan apabila bendalir "Histamine" dirembeskan yang menjadi pencetus kepada rengsa kulit tadi.
Ni bukan perut aku, ni ambil dari WikipediaLogik bukan, jika anda garu dan garu dan garu. Merebaklah ia ke merata tempat, sebab kapilari darah yang kecil pada dermis semakin dipecahkan.
Gelgata seperti saya sebutkan tadi boleh disebabkan oleh pelbagai faktor, namun proses kejadiannya adalah sama. Saya dahulu pernah terkena gelgata yang disebabkan oleh jangkitan kuman setelah baring pada sofa yang tercemar dan kawan saya juga pernah kena yang disebabkan oleh faktor sama setelah mengalihkan pasu bunga. Untuk penawarnya, doktor telah memberikan satu suntikan yang saya rasa anti-histamine.
Sekarang, saya sudah sihat. Boleh hidup macam biasa. Hehe
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