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sekarang tengah exam first semester. Yesterday was mathematics..it was AWESOME. ok tipu.

the soalan was bloody hell susah, did not expect it to be that hard but i guessed that i had done my best ,i prayed hard during the exam for the last four questions i left not remembering the formula..i recited every salawat as i could, and Alhamdulillah..i got it all right Insyaallah.. but except for the fact that the last question i left i did not have much time to finish it then the Madam already put on her hoarses "PUT YOUR PENCILS ALL DOWN". great... tawakkaltu A'llallah..

this morning is going to be English,which i am not sure what do i have to study. not that i am great enough, but i have tried. but i never know what to study english when there is no litterature. during high school years,litterature is just the part that i hated the most sorry no offence but im nto really good in reading things between the lines not to mention the classic words used, to me incomprehensive..why do people have to force me to understand the stanza as how we are supposely to understand?why am i imposed to do that so? i thought that art and poetry are something that we define it ourselves..you on your first place (poet) are trying hard not to get people to understand the message arent you? the harder to understand the more artistic you are.. but i have studied a bit like the format, patterns of writing..

International English Language Testing System (IELTS) ,that's what i am taking. :) wish me luck!

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kenapa aku malas?? harini hari malas. hari malasku,... teringat salah satu bacaan dalam ma'thurat ,

Wahai Tuhanku, Engkaulah Tuhanku, tiada Tuhan yang lain melainkan Engkau. Engkaulah Tuhan yang menciptaku. Akulah hambaMu dan aku akan mengotakan segala ikrar dan janjiku denganMu sedaya upaya yang ada padaku. Aku berlindung denganMu dari kejahatan perbuatan yang telah aku lakukan. Aku mengaku kepadaMu terhadap nikmat-nikmat yang telah Engkau kurniakan kepadaku dan aku juga mengaku dengan dosaku. Oleh itu ampunkan daku kerana sesungguhnya tiada siapa yang boleh mengampunkan dosa melainkan Engkau."

ingat janji kita inderectly pada Allah dalam doa ini..and satu lagi doa dalam ma'thurat kalau rasa-rasa macam nak malas lagi, ce baca ni,dengan penuh yakin aku nak rajin balik..

Ya allah,aku berlindung padaMu dari rasa sedih dan gelisah, Ya Allah aku berlindung kepadaMu dari sifat lemah dan malas.. Aku juga berlindung padaMu dari sifat pengecut dan bakhil serta dari cengkaman hutang dan penindasan orang (3x)..  :)

ini untuk peringatan diri juga.sememangnya tiada manusia yang sempurna,.tak semestinya para ustaz atau alim ulama' je yang kena bagi peringatan. Kita yang biasa-biasa pun boleh. sebab kalau nak tunggu jadi perfect baru nak nak kata layak bagi peringatan sampai bila takkan dapat nak baginya..ustaz-ustaz pun manusia biasa,level of keimanan pun ada naik turun. Jadi,jangan rasa rendah diri untuk berkongsi nasihat ke arah kebaikan..takpe,cakap je.. share je.

SHARING ialah CARING. kan?
tiba-tiba dah rajin balik.huhu.

salam.

berubah

saya tahu saya suka makan. saya sedar. Saya SUKA makan. memang suka.SANGAT. banyaknya saya berjalan kat penang ni ,syurga makanan, sampai rasa bersalah sangat makan banyak, bersalah pada diri,sebab menganiaya diri sendiri,kena bersenam lebih untuk bakar kalori itu semua balik. dan keburukan lebih banyak daripada kebaikan keluar makan ni. untuk pelajar pra perubatan seperti saya, adalah tidak patut sama sekali saya membazir masa terutama sekali masa terbuang untuk masa perjalanan. *berbelit* hAHA. saya ingin BERUBAH, sebab masa itu sepatutnya dimanfaatkan dengan belajar.kalau xdapat score saya tahu saya akan menangis. masakan tidak? tapi kalau dah jadi,mana boleh pusing balik. saya tak nak sebelum saya menyesal. saya minta maaf dekat ibu dan ayah sebab banyak spend and keluar.kakak akan berusaha untuk perbaiki diri kakak. terima kasih dekat housemates semua,thay,mun,hazrat syahirah ima semua sekali dan ujer semestinya sebab diorang banyak membantu. semoga persahabatan kita kekal dunia akhirat..

bagi ujer,ya,saya pun punya harapan yang sama macam awak. semoga hubungan kita berkekalan dan saya berasa sungguh selesa berkawan dengan awak. awak jugalah kawan baik saya awak jugalah teman istimewa. istimewa sehingga saya rasa nak dengar lagu indigo-istimewa la plak :P haha.k...

Perkara di rumah.

Mengikut Akta Nyapo 10/11,  Perkara di rumah , adalah berhak bagi individu bergelar "Kakak",
untuk mendominasi :-
tv, arahan dan permintaan destinasi untuk keluar rumah (e.g. Tesco,Giant atau pasar tani)

Namun begitu, i was being feelingless for the few days i was at home.what did i do?

                                                                        Tidur kuasa 2.

that was my main activity. sampingan bersama keluargakuu :)

                         [bersama aisyah bushuk, ibu (tangan at right) & shahna (tangan at left)]

ok im a newbie to the blogging world..so sorry lah i taktaw nak move kan  to bubuh caption -.- but the chronology goes like this......

after the ice cream part, ada kerusi, and aisyah under the pokok asking why goyang? hehe.
and kerusi-kerusi futuristic modern gitu... apple desktops and the rest! itu adalah di library ... :) library shah alam, at KGSAAS... hadiah from sultan to rakyat jelata negeri Selangor..cost RM 70 Million! niceee... terima kasih tuanku!! :D

then itu gambar ayah and Adam dinner.. di mana saya jumpe ramai classmates saya like shissshhh!!! why now??? tgh gemuk !! segan.. heheh :P

lastly,adalah drawing aisyah ..."My family" ;)

AK flight.

Along the timeline of my life, I have been missing out friends, which those I used to spend my recess time with, sharing secrets, gossiping, getting into cocuriculum clubs which we altogether agreed with to join, as long as we are not seperated. I  believe that for everything that happens, there must have be a reason for it, and I learned from the past.

I thought I had learned enough, I thought I was prepared, and wiser than i was before. But why does it have to happen again?

I love her as a friend, very much indeed eventhough I barely know her but I was so comfortable and I  know, I can trust in her. It's not that she betrayed me, and neither do I , I suppose.

It sounded like i left her, for him. People might judge it that way. But who cares. They do not know what actually happens. Well, nothing happen actually.. I am not jealous. Why would i? But lefting out me in part of her life is making me feel a loner. I was always with her, I NEVER forget to share every single piece of latest juicy story of mine to her, but for the most vital piece of story that how I  badly wished i could share with her was when he proposed me. But things did not work out well between her and i.. so i buried my excitement, deep hollow in my heart and now it's still frozen, cold, and untouched. i am not hoping for it to be touched for warm, as it is now, is impossible..  Too late?

Housemates are the second family of mine & I LOVE them.

And girl,thanks for the memories. I know I am boring and dull. I am sorry

 *moving on*.