your world is my world
your fight is my fight
your breath is my breath
your heart?

i love you Ujer Bieber!! :DD

under drug post

Need

ujer

help

me

no

more

cakes

please

or

I

will

have

to

tumbuk

you

sampai

lumat

LOVE

it all started with a simple day, simple dress, simple smile and a simple talk. Turned out to be the not so simple relationship.
"hai.." i turned back to the person standing behind me with a simple smile and a simple hi. he looked surprised, i was embarrased,turing my head back to the front,embarrassed,  facing my coolest friend on earth but i do not mind she does not think me the same way, as i know i am not. it was somewhere in the early of July, i was so bored, waiting in zigzag lines, to take a picture for our matric card.
i heard the grinned of the person behind me eventhough he was not saying any word, so i braved myself, turning myself back again, "siapa nama?... oh Ujer. " it went something like that. the three of us talked about schools, backgrounds, experience and woven with a little bit of over excitement, as the early half an hour already, i can sense that we three have chemistry. the day ended up just, like that...
it was so awesome our class rept. to get the numbers for the whole class, the girls started to cheering for trying out to prank their favourite "someone" or whatsoever ok i exagerrated this part but i know mestilah ada kan.

anyway, i used to use a Vivaz phone, it is a HD touchscreen phone which i bought it myself, by my own first salary and i LOVEEEEEE the phone so much. but long story short, i added up all the contact numbers into my phone and the first person to have texted me was Ujer. I was excited, as i know.. he is so AWESOME! always got me cracked into his own creatively made up jokes.. i love it. our relationship as friends, grow fonder and fonder, and alas.. after all the scandals people put up and we keep on denying it but it never got into our mind to part away from each other. one day, i IM him at facebook. as usual.. about our story, it's not something that i wanted to share here.. But i love him. and i still DO.

he was so sweet,yet he is still now..
 whoever that gets to be with him, is the LUCKIEST GIRL on earth.seriously..  he always give me secret recipe cakes.. always got confused between the one i loath and loathe, blackforest cake or chocolate indulgences.. i know it is not cheap. what i am happy the most, his parents are so fine and in fact, were happy to find out about our relationship. they take it as a good thing as long as he stays respect to me and perform in his studies. was such an easy for him. not for me. i could not complaint much, i understand as a daughter, in Islam, a daughter or a girl is like a symbol of dignity. it is not that i am dirty, but they just want to take a good care of me like save the best for last.. which is to my future husband and most importantly for Allah. i am their responbility.. things like this lingered into my mind.. i changed my mind several of times and asked for break up..many times.MANY... i know that he is deeply hurt. i know for the others, they will see i am the bad one in this relationship. what i had learnt, never judge someone without YOU being at her/his place. Especially if you had never been into any relationship. I have my own personal reason for this and sometimes, not all things we can share to others.. do i have to tell the whole world ,THE REASON ? will it change the situation or people's perception? i have to learn not to thing much about what other people say and just stick to my virtue. they know nothing..they just say things as they are so bored of minding their own business..

all i want to say is, i am ashamed with Allah. his parents and family.. i just want him to stay as my friend. my BEST FRIEND like a normal one.. that occasinally express their feeling.. not all the time. i know he feels it all the time. urgh.. i sounded like a fussy one. i love him.really do.. but when he does things that get into my nerves, i tend to get mad.SO mad that i sometimes feel like changing course and runaway from him. the moral of the story, never to get into a serious committed relationship if you thing you are not ready yet. love your parents that have raised you for (state your age) and love yourself

virology

since i am feeling under the weather these days, i would like to thank Allah for fating the quiz to be postponed to next week. i just could not get the things i am studying into my head right now, feeling so sleepy and heavy headed all the time.. sometimes i do not even realise things i have say.. virology. a vast topic taught in a few times of lecture but thousands to memorize. im just a beginner i know, but urghhhhhhhhh... so many disease, so many genus,species to know.. please bless me with a good health O Allah ! ;( AMIN.

gratified

long time no blog.ngeehee.. The result had got out last week. Alhamdulillah..always be grateful with your GPA because that reflects your effort and the fate that Allah has given to us.. to Uzair and to myself. we did great, i mean both of us, Uzair and I as we helped each other through the ups and downs.. along with our housemates. our houses just have chemistry between the people in these two houses..haha.funny but it is.. I had so many stressful events these days.. mainly, money, relationship, and personal health problems. Now i know how it feels like to be so skint, seeing things but not be able to have it. Christmas is coming ahead in a few days, not that im celebrating it, but i will be celebrating the Christmas Sale feast! haha.. i always love christmas sales.. all pretty pretty things brought out, at low prices.. just so wonderful =,)

for now.. unfortunately, i am in a cold fever. it has been two days, and this is the second time i fall sick since i have been into college. so sadd... i  miss ibu (mum). Ibu will always be there by my side, making porridge, and as i am getting bigger, she doesnt care much as she has other priorities to be taken care of ,im okay with it,but having her around in my sight is just fine for me. i love her..the best mother anyone could have. sometimes, we quarrel over disagreement of something, but because she views things, as an experienced viewer.. i should trust her better i know. but what i am glad here, she accepts me for whoever i am. also, ayah.. they both treat me the  kindest rational way a parent should care. my parents are not the same as others, but i believe that every other parents would want the same thing from their child. to this pair of parents, scolding them this way is a better way.but for some they think no, it is suppose to be done this way. but the goal, is always the same. to raise their child to be a good man ,that serve benefits to the society and play his role as a khalifah Allah on this world. together, let us give the best to our parents while they are alive, maximize your effort and time for them.

housemates

i love my housemates. :) i am sorry because i love you guys too much, ahaha. sounds weird.they are weird jugak in their on way... #each one of them , damn i am serious. but i utterly love them and gratified to Allah for giving me chance to meet them and let them carving my path along us, TOGETHER, SIX of us :)

reblog. gelgata apakah??

Salam..anda pernah dengar tak pasal gelgata?. Bukan semua orang tahu fasal ini. Saya pun baru sahaja tahu selepas bertahun-tahun menghadapi masalah ini. Setelah hampir beberapa minit menggunakan Google. Akhirnya saya dapat tahu yang ruam gelgata ini, yang selalu disebutkan oleh orang dulu-dulu mempunyai nama saintifiknya iaitu Urticaria.

Boleh dikatakan saya pada setiap pagi, kalau waktu itu suhu berada pada paras 20 darjah Celcius dan air yang keluar dari pili sejuk pasti saya akan kena gelgata. Ha, sebelum itu. Gelgata ini boleh dibahagikan kepada beberapa sebab dan faktor penyebabnya.

1) Air
2) Suhu
4) Jangkitan kuman
5) Tekanan
5) Alergi

dan beberapa sebab lagi yang telah direkodkan.

Saya pun tak tahu kenapa, tetapi kulit pada badan saya ini boleh dikatakan memang sensitif betul. Kalau sejuk mesti kena gelgata, tapi tidak lah kronik sampai satu badan. Cuma di bahagian sendi tangan dan kaki atau leher. Begitu juga kalau mandi sungai pada pagi hari, cari nahaslah jawabnya. Satu sahaja syarat yang saya tahu untuk mengelakkan dari gelgata ini merebak pada badan saya. Jangan garu.

Tetapi hari sabtu punya cerita, saya kena gelgata satu badan. Ambil masa 3 hari untuk pulih seperti sediakala. Ini saya dapati adalah akibat cuaca sejuk melampau secara tiba-tiba di Perlis. Hujan satu hari tidak berhenti berserta angin sejuk. Maklumlah Perlis punya cuaca berbeza sikit sebab dah menghampiri garisan Jadi. Setelah membaca di Wikipedia, barulah saya tahu. Selama ini saya asyik ingat kalau saya garu, gelgata pasti merebak sebab kuman pada kuku dipindahkan ke bahagian kulit yang lain rupa-rupanya salah.

The skin lesions of urticarial disease are caused by an inflammatory reaction in the skin, causing leakage of capillaries in the dermis, and resulting in an edema which persists until the interstitial fluid is absorbed into the surrounding cells.
Urticaria are caused by the release of histamine and other mediators of inflammation (cytokines) from cells in the skin. This process can be the result of an allergic or non-allergic reaction, differing in the eliciting mechanism of histamine release.

Apabila cuaca atau suhu sejuk (dalam konteks saya, aquagenic/cold urticaria), kapilari kecil pada dermis akan pecah dan akan menyebabkan edema (pengumpulan bendalir di bawah kulit) yang akan berterusan sehingga bendalir tisu kulit diserap oleh sel sekeliling. Sekarang pasti anda boleh bayang kenapa ada semacam bonggolan yang gatal pada kulit jika berlaku gelgata bukan. Semua kejadian ini dipanggil "inflammatory" yang tidak silap saya dalam bahasa melayu dipanggil rengsa. Seterusnya proses ini diteruskan apabila bendalir "Histamine" dirembeskan yang menjadi pencetus kepada rengsa kulit tadi.

Ni bukan perut aku, ni ambil dari Wikipedia

Logik bukan, jika anda garu dan garu dan garu. Merebaklah ia ke merata tempat, sebab kapilari darah yang kecil pada dermis semakin dipecahkan.

Gelgata seperti saya sebutkan tadi boleh disebabkan oleh pelbagai faktor, namun proses kejadiannya adalah sama. Saya dahulu pernah terkena gelgata yang disebabkan oleh jangkitan kuman setelah baring pada sofa yang tercemar dan kawan saya juga pernah kena yang disebabkan oleh faktor sama setelah mengalihkan pasu bunga. Untuk penawarnya, doktor telah memberikan satu suntikan yang saya rasa anti-histamine.

Sekarang, saya sudah sihat. Boleh hidup macam biasa. Hehe

gigi lagi

last Thursday my housemates and I went back to Shah Alam by KTM (kereta api malaysia), technically starting our day on Friday, with Mcdonald as breakfast treat by Shahna (aunt) and went straight to home, refreshing my self, at 3 p.m. had to rush off to Sunway as I had appoinment with dentist. my wisdom tooth teeth, made terrible aching but these two wont ever gonna beat the first one naa'ah..anyway anyhow, i was not feeling well jugak. as i dont know.. terok sgt my tummy was bergelora, my head was extremely dizzy, i felt like throwing up. funny thing,the minute i sampai je the clinic, i teros yelled out toilet mana??? ran teros ke toilet,and urhhh...ok tak jadi. my procedure dah delay dah...kesian the next patient.. my duration dah overlapped..

so, sampai rumah,after puking banyak kali, i started rasa nak demam. so ok, saket gigi + threw up + and demam + and angin sangat perot.. the next day, i went out KLCC for movie Puss in Boots with my family.. cerita dia,hurmm..it was okay lah. Recommending those yang belum tengok lagi,just wait for it to come out at Disney jela okay ;) so, makan popcorn macam tak ingat saya muntah semalam, and had the most pricey popcorn i had ever bought in my life :

Garrett popcorn: cheesecorn popcorn 

RM 31

ridiculous... but belom cuba belum tahu right ? : )

available in four flavours,go on check them at KLCC, just next to surau.. sape tak tahu surau mana memang tak semayang lah kan -.-

how about next to Haagen dasz? yup..it is over there. i forgot to snap a picture of the line people are willing to queue so looooong Zigzag-ly with the cheapest one at RM 16.. fuhh O_O 

[i was not the one who queued..]

and, i was hoping really hoped that i would not bump onto someone that i would know.. but things suka nak jadi jugak kan.because my cheek was swollen and a bit bloating view from side.(sebab cabut gigi,remember)..it was Sharif, my penang friend,i was sooo terrified gile tak tipu -.- malu i could not smile actually, and talk and do anything that requires me to stretch my lips ( it will move my gums) or opening mouth so big(disrupting my jammed jaw)

okay, i know i merapu terlebih.. one thing yang x merapu, during my holidays, i really..........badly.....missing this guy over here---->

now dah balik penang. but i am soo homesick ;( i dont know why...sgt rindu ibu ayah,rumah..bilik..semua..! but mission...kena ingat.huh.ok..bangun!!

crazy night

series of crazy songs mun, ima and I danced to this night. it was AWESOME!!! i love this night. girls' craziest night haha.  thay walked into our dance floor ( my crazy disco room with  invisible flashy light) and seeing us acting like monkeys jumping on the bed. one went down and two are left. two monkeys jumping on the bed. one went down and one sweat like river! haha.. fun time ;) <3

me.boring

i am getting more boring and boring each day. i have begin to lose my sense of humour. i am depressed. 

tears

maaf lah saya perempuan. maaflah saya lemah, maka menangis juga sudah sebati dengan kulit pipiku.

maaf lah saya naif. maaflah saya tidak mengerti, bagaimana sesuatu perkara itu boleh berlaku tanpa sebab.

maaflah saya manusia. maaflah saya tidak sempurna, apabila saya bertindak sesuatu tanpa menyedari kesan dan akibatnya.

tidak pernah saya berniat untuk berkasar dengan sesiapa, tapi kalau gelas pun boleh terpecah, inikan pula adab yang dipengaruhi emosi dan nafsu. 

masalahku bertimbun. rasa nak campak ke lantai, nanti terpijak, nak baling ke dinding, takut berderai,nak kutip balik satu hal. masalah oh masalah.. 

hatta. macam mana? U, FA dan FE. tiga-tiga sahabat aku sayang. mangsa seorang lagi hamba Allah, sahabat serumah, sahabat berjenaka, dan tidak berdosa, maaf aku terhempas gelas atas meja. aku kehilangan kekuatan untuk bercerita, untuk minta pendapat. aku dah tak mampu untuk nak pegang lagi dah sehinggakan beratnya terasa milo ais yang tidak ada ais itu aku pegang, sampai TAM! aku terhempas ke atas meja. engkau tidak tahu, tidak patut aku layan sahabat yang macam engkau macam ni. aku sungguh berdosa pada ramai orang. aku berdosa pada kamu. pada anda semua.

worth of 10 Ringgit Malaysia joy :)

Yesterday was supposed to be housemates outing. Turned out to be almost everyone made double-date, prompted me to drag Ujer along with the trip. Supposedly, not. So, as usual, we shop separately and the coolest thing i had bought, was a shelve! Wohoo.. finally my study table looks a lot more spacious than it was before. My mind always got wired to see things mess up all over the place, but one thing for sure, not my study table and wardrobe..na’ah. it’s like one cubical room taken out from my heart, extracted physically in the form of study table and wardrobe. Okay what the goldfish am i merapu ni. Do you know that goldfish has a memory span of only two seconds?

Anyway, the incredible miraculous part that happen yesterday was, i actually assembled 98% of everything myself! I could not believe it because we are not talking about Ikea’s where you have tutorial ,we are talking about RM 10 Jusco shelve! That’s why i bought it. Cheapest one, available in green only which matches with my notes board which is okay lah.. not bad. One shelve is enough to stack my scanner that took up half the space of my study table.

AK Flight relive :)

AK Flight. Nothing much i can say but grateful and thanking Allah for granting my dua' also Uzair for helping in my situation with AK Flight. yesterday, 10th November 2011, marked the day we finally broke everything up into what had been kept frozen in our hearts. i dont know what it was to her, but i felt so relieved. i love her as a friend i would not mind if it would not be the same as how it was back then but as long as between she and I, there will be no more hiding truth, no more hesitation to greet or smile, no more running away. i kept evading her. i could not help myself. i would be so torn seeing her laughing, but not with me.talking, but not to me. sharing, but not with me. she is funny, i am nothing. she is good in basketball, i suck. but i love her as a friend, i like to be taught, not to teach. here, at the early semester, we share best guy friend, Uzair. it was so much fun seeing them exchange jokes,haha, they always made up jokes. it was awesome and i love the memories that we had ,the three of us together.:)

 i never left anyone else behind eventhough i am now in a special relationship with Uzair. take my housemates as a proof. i treat them as my family, we quarrel like hell, we laugh together like there is no tomorrow, but we always do love each other i know that, we sense that, but never that good in expressing it towards each other (we express in texting :P), like a family.

i thought she left me because of i do not suit her comfort. but it's okay, as long as everything is back to normal.

i know she is tough, i am not sure if she feels the same way as i do.

nasi minyak

 nasi minyak. not oiled rice..nor butter rice. just nasi minyak..usually cook on weddings,aqiqah ( a hair-cutting ritual for the newly born baby) or etc.. so anyway,this afternoon i was like

saya: now?

dia: no no..wait tengah unpack lagi.
saya: okay okay.. takpe take your time and get some rest dulu. 

5minutes later
saya: now?
dia: jap ana..saya still tengah unpack.nanti saya call.
saya: okay okay..

10 minutes later 
hati saya: lamanya dia unpack barang dia

20 minutes later
saya: now? 
dia: err..ana.<ketawa kecil>..nanti saya telefon.tengah kemas-kemas lagi ni..sabar eyh.

i was so impatient because i missed him of course and i want nasi minyak!

the phone rang. brrp. brrp.

 eyes membulat. NASI MINYAK! jumped off my bed and

hello? NASI MINYAK!

 ran down the stairs and bam! nasi minyak at doorstep :DD it's very kind of his mum to give some for me and not to mention it was a lot!

we exchange food/drink..he gave me nasi minyak and i gave him Arab imported mango drink.. and makan and minumlah kami di habitat masing-masing..end of story. sounds nonsense mutation ? :P

10 Zulhijjah 1432H

HAPPY EID ADHA!!

raya always come in package.. raya + food.. duniawi-ly lah.. what i had the minute i start my day to now i am doing my typing sekarang is as usual, nasi impit, lampung, lemang, lemang jagung, steamboat, i ate my sixth caramel bowl that my mum made.. SANGAT IRRESISTABLE. lagi, 2 ketul ayam, banana split lagi and nasi tomato and 2 slices of chocolate cake and small slices of Sarawak cake.. i am a heavy food eater you just have to know it. SANGAT passionate in food, and my mum is constantly worrying about me..imagine i can makan cakes like makan nasi. It is no kidding... also,the highest number of pieces i went for pizza in one shot is ELEVEN PIECES. have my parents to prove it..terok. i know..purpose cerita ni?

to tengok my progress..how can i ubah myself untuk tolong lah please change my eating habits because my metabolism rate, i tahu it is not that efficient no more so i have to change..sangat. kena. kena ada support. ujer had given me enough support but i myself suka deviate.. urgh.ok.end of today merapu-ness.  tapi raya is tetap raya.kena celebrate okay! ;)

 

aisyah and nurin 

jom buat.!

bersihkan kidney anda dengan kos yang murah, sihat dan secara organik!

A bunch of parsley (rinse to clean)

cut in small pieces and put it in a pot + pour in clean water

boil ten mintues

leave it to cool then filter

refrigerate and urinate! :D

parsley is one of the best cleansing treatment for kidney and you just have to try it!

amalkan

 Umatmu adalah umat yang terakhir dan terlalu dha’if, maka berdoalah untuk umatmu. Suruhlah umatmu menanam tanaman syurga iaitu ‘la haula wa la quwwata illa billah’” Mengikut riwayat lain, Nabi Ibrahim AS bersabda, “Sampaikan salamku kepada umatmu dan beritahu mereka, syurga itu baik tanahnya, tawar airnya dan tanamannya ialah lima kalimah, iaitu: ‘suhanallah, walhahamdulillah, wa la ilah illa allah, wallahu akbar, wa la haula wa la quwwata illa billahil ‘aliyyil azim’. Bagi orang yang membaca setiap kalimah ini akan ditanamkan sepohon pokok dalam syurga”. 

slimming tips

okay. Firstly, mark this, it does not mean i am posting this i buat, i am just sharing what i know and see what i can tolong untuk kita sama-sama mengelokkan anugerah Allah dah bagi kat kita..sebab setiap perempuan is mahal in their own way ;)

this is a list of home tips i could get from my family and friends and pengalaman la kan...

1. makan plenty of bitter veggie like peria, ulam-ulaman etc. the bitter the better.

2.sampai sini je dulu jap sebab ngantok plak.hahah.. xD k.adios people!

battlefield I

sekarang tengah exam first semester. Yesterday was mathematics..it was AWESOME. ok tipu.

the soalan was bloody hell susah, did not expect it to be that hard but i guessed that i had done my best ,i prayed hard during the exam for the last four questions i left not remembering the formula..i recited every salawat as i could, and Alhamdulillah..i got it all right Insyaallah.. but except for the fact that the last question i left i did not have much time to finish it then the Madam already put on her hoarses "PUT YOUR PENCILS ALL DOWN". great... tawakkaltu A'llallah..

this morning is going to be English,which i am not sure what do i have to study. not that i am great enough, but i have tried. but i never know what to study english when there is no litterature. during high school years,litterature is just the part that i hated the most sorry no offence but im nto really good in reading things between the lines not to mention the classic words used, to me incomprehensive..why do people have to force me to understand the stanza as how we are supposely to understand?why am i imposed to do that so? i thought that art and poetry are something that we define it ourselves..you on your first place (poet) are trying hard not to get people to understand the message arent you? the harder to understand the more artistic you are.. but i have studied a bit like the format, patterns of writing..

International English Language Testing System (IELTS) ,that's what i am taking. :) wish me luck!

share.

kenapa aku malas?? harini hari malas. hari malasku,... teringat salah satu bacaan dalam ma'thurat ,

Wahai Tuhanku, Engkaulah Tuhanku, tiada Tuhan yang lain melainkan Engkau. Engkaulah Tuhan yang menciptaku. Akulah hambaMu dan aku akan mengotakan segala ikrar dan janjiku denganMu sedaya upaya yang ada padaku. Aku berlindung denganMu dari kejahatan perbuatan yang telah aku lakukan. Aku mengaku kepadaMu terhadap nikmat-nikmat yang telah Engkau kurniakan kepadaku dan aku juga mengaku dengan dosaku. Oleh itu ampunkan daku kerana sesungguhnya tiada siapa yang boleh mengampunkan dosa melainkan Engkau."

ingat janji kita inderectly pada Allah dalam doa ini..and satu lagi doa dalam ma'thurat kalau rasa-rasa macam nak malas lagi, ce baca ni,dengan penuh yakin aku nak rajin balik..

Ya allah,aku berlindung padaMu dari rasa sedih dan gelisah, Ya Allah aku berlindung kepadaMu dari sifat lemah dan malas.. Aku juga berlindung padaMu dari sifat pengecut dan bakhil serta dari cengkaman hutang dan penindasan orang (3x)..  :)

ini untuk peringatan diri juga.sememangnya tiada manusia yang sempurna,.tak semestinya para ustaz atau alim ulama' je yang kena bagi peringatan. Kita yang biasa-biasa pun boleh. sebab kalau nak tunggu jadi perfect baru nak nak kata layak bagi peringatan sampai bila takkan dapat nak baginya..ustaz-ustaz pun manusia biasa,level of keimanan pun ada naik turun. Jadi,jangan rasa rendah diri untuk berkongsi nasihat ke arah kebaikan..takpe,cakap je.. share je.

SHARING ialah CARING. kan?
tiba-tiba dah rajin balik.huhu.

salam.

berubah

saya tahu saya suka makan. saya sedar. Saya SUKA makan. memang suka.SANGAT. banyaknya saya berjalan kat penang ni ,syurga makanan, sampai rasa bersalah sangat makan banyak, bersalah pada diri,sebab menganiaya diri sendiri,kena bersenam lebih untuk bakar kalori itu semua balik. dan keburukan lebih banyak daripada kebaikan keluar makan ni. untuk pelajar pra perubatan seperti saya, adalah tidak patut sama sekali saya membazir masa terutama sekali masa terbuang untuk masa perjalanan. *berbelit* hAHA. saya ingin BERUBAH, sebab masa itu sepatutnya dimanfaatkan dengan belajar.kalau xdapat score saya tahu saya akan menangis. masakan tidak? tapi kalau dah jadi,mana boleh pusing balik. saya tak nak sebelum saya menyesal. saya minta maaf dekat ibu dan ayah sebab banyak spend and keluar.kakak akan berusaha untuk perbaiki diri kakak. terima kasih dekat housemates semua,thay,mun,hazrat syahirah ima semua sekali dan ujer semestinya sebab diorang banyak membantu. semoga persahabatan kita kekal dunia akhirat..

bagi ujer,ya,saya pun punya harapan yang sama macam awak. semoga hubungan kita berkekalan dan saya berasa sungguh selesa berkawan dengan awak. awak jugalah kawan baik saya awak jugalah teman istimewa. istimewa sehingga saya rasa nak dengar lagu indigo-istimewa la plak :P haha.k...

Perkara di rumah.

Mengikut Akta Nyapo 10/11,  Perkara di rumah , adalah berhak bagi individu bergelar "Kakak",
untuk mendominasi :-
tv, arahan dan permintaan destinasi untuk keluar rumah (e.g. Tesco,Giant atau pasar tani)

Namun begitu, i was being feelingless for the few days i was at home.what did i do?

                                                                        Tidur kuasa 2.

that was my main activity. sampingan bersama keluargakuu :)

                         [bersama aisyah bushuk, ibu (tangan at right) & shahna (tangan at left)]

ok im a newbie to the blogging world..so sorry lah i taktaw nak move kan  to bubuh caption -.- but the chronology goes like this......

after the ice cream part, ada kerusi, and aisyah under the pokok asking why goyang? hehe.
and kerusi-kerusi futuristic modern gitu... apple desktops and the rest! itu adalah di library ... :) library shah alam, at KGSAAS... hadiah from sultan to rakyat jelata negeri Selangor..cost RM 70 Million! niceee... terima kasih tuanku!! :D

then itu gambar ayah and Adam dinner.. di mana saya jumpe ramai classmates saya like shissshhh!!! why now??? tgh gemuk !! segan.. heheh :P

lastly,adalah drawing aisyah ..."My family" ;)

AK flight.

Along the timeline of my life, I have been missing out friends, which those I used to spend my recess time with, sharing secrets, gossiping, getting into cocuriculum clubs which we altogether agreed with to join, as long as we are not seperated. I  believe that for everything that happens, there must have be a reason for it, and I learned from the past.

I thought I had learned enough, I thought I was prepared, and wiser than i was before. But why does it have to happen again?

I love her as a friend, very much indeed eventhough I barely know her but I was so comfortable and I  know, I can trust in her. It's not that she betrayed me, and neither do I , I suppose.

It sounded like i left her, for him. People might judge it that way. But who cares. They do not know what actually happens. Well, nothing happen actually.. I am not jealous. Why would i? But lefting out me in part of her life is making me feel a loner. I was always with her, I NEVER forget to share every single piece of latest juicy story of mine to her, but for the most vital piece of story that how I  badly wished i could share with her was when he proposed me. But things did not work out well between her and i.. so i buried my excitement, deep hollow in my heart and now it's still frozen, cold, and untouched. i am not hoping for it to be touched for warm, as it is now, is impossible..  Too late?

Housemates are the second family of mine & I LOVE them.

And girl,thanks for the memories. I know I am boring and dull. I am sorry

 *moving on*.

9 Months Goals

Ok..It's not im pregnant for God sake im still a virgin. This NINE months are the processes i will do to achieve THREE things i have ever wanted the most at the moment.

- Super Rajinness in all aspects.

- IELTS have to go beyond band 7 (9.0 probably?)

- 42 KG!!

i had spent a lot and when i mean a lot it was BERJUTA cents for just this whole week. i went out to warung ikan bakar ( grilled fish restaurant) for lunch, char kuey teow sg.Dua, secret recipe, KFC, and manyak lagi roti canai nasi lemak ontah bape kali den pusing >.< (bahase nogori pon boleh)

Yesterday my ibu called me, reminding me to take a good care of my health, watch out for my eating habits and not to put on weight no more like i did last time (my weight rose by 8 kg last time , imagine) . Then the day before my nek called me reminding the same thing. It's a call for a healthier living!!

say yes, to healthy lifestyle.

ceywahh :P Happy Vegitating!

i love AUCMS

haha.ok..ok.urm..where to start ah?

R E A S O N S .

1.Classes are ONLY from Monday to Thursday( comprising lectures, tutorial and practical ) YES YES!!! EXACTLY!! =D  ok sgt over.. this means..... that we are FREE Friday-Sunday.

(4 days,so what to do?!) :P

                                            

                                                    GO SHOPPING!

2.My batch has 4 groups, 4 different schedules, and i must say that i LOVEE mine hehe. >:)

Most of the days, my class ends early..

3. this place means a lot to me and i know im going to miss this place. I have met my long lost sekolah agama (religion school) friend , Fatimah Azzahra, who is now my roommate.

4.Another SOMEONE special is someone who knows just the right thing to do when im in need of something. I am praying for the best to this relationship, hope it will last forever and always.

5.  FOOD. one of the main reason.should be at the top of this list -.- HEAVEN GILERR.

my main reason to this post is to post reasons i love aucms. *mark that. :)

have a nice day everyone!

p/s: if you are reading this , say it out loud i love TEMPOYAK! hehe :)

krazie wiken @_@

okay,firstly..it had been a while i had not blog. This post might be black, or white, boring and dull, but for what is happening to me right now since my last post to this day, i must say my path was rainbowed. :)

enuf with it, i wud like to share some videos of our journey to Penang Island last Saturday along with my friends,specifically (Ujer,Mun,Thay,Syahirah,Nawal,Bit,Mar,Zahin,Abul and Izzul)..
It was the best moment of all outing i had been to and i am also glad that my parents are okay with it. Do not worry ibu and ayah, i will take a good care of myself ;)

Destination

1. Pantai Merdeka, Kedah (1.5hrs)
2.Queensbay Mall, Penang (5 hrs)
3. Oldest Indian Surau (built in 1800)(0.5hr)
4.The famous Nasi Kandar Line Clear(0.75hr)
5.Bukit Bendera(0.25hr)

Time
 10 a.m. - 10.30 p.m.

i know that the total hours did not sum up the time 10 am to 10 pm because we got sesat (lost) for nearly one hour in between our journey from number 4 to number 5 ,plus the hours on the road..so,happy watching the video!

pantai merdeka

line clear-kapitan, line clear-kapitan

nak tengok pon boleh, tanak tengok pon takpa.

A Fresh Start

Thanks to Ujer.
I finally remember that I actually own a blog.
How silly is that?!

So, after asking for Ujer a major changes.
This is it. My new blog layout.

It's not much, and will be learning more on how to blog.

toodles. :)

CNY

Happy Chinese New Year to all chinese around the globe and may this year of rabbbit will give a prosper
feng hsui. :) Well,just to say that i also have like maybe 25% of Chinese blood where my great grandmother on my dad's side is a chinese who converted to islam. On the other hand, i just for a couple of next few hours i will be off to Ipoh , not to celebrate CNY but to grace a wonderful going-to-be ceremony of merisik. Well it's not me who's going to be dirisik but my aunt, miss Shahna Saruji. merisik is a traditional culture of Malays which to ask for hand of a flower ( the daughter of a family) either she's taken or not and to discuss formally about wedding dates and hantaran (trays of gifts) . So basically, it's just a small event that will lead to another BIGGER event in someone's life history :)

shinetsu

it's a cubical shaped office located in a compound of a factory by a gigantic empire company,named 52 years ago, SHINETSU. yes, it's a japanese company and i was in luck,to have the chance to be part of the working team in HR unit.. My first week was a total thrill.. as in, at first,i was excited. Cudn't wait to go to work,cudn't wait to meet new people, cudn't wait,cudn't wait, cudn't wait. But i didn't know where did i go wrong, but i suddenly had fallen deep down into the hollow of my bones for i was so suffocated with timidity. Only GOD knew how i felt.. i was so scared even when i had to go to the restroom! It was nothing unusual actually,shish stupid me.. Eventhou i noe it's normal for people to be curious to noe who is the new staff what so ever but i cudnt help... Let the situation of not-be-friending with anyone engulfing me.. but however, i managed to get it over. One of them is i confided my aunt, what actly yang berbeka di hati saya..haha.i cried,cried, and cried.. then i felt better.she gave me suggestions based on her experience..along with prayers and her tips,i tried.. alhamdulillah.. SO, the moral of the story, sometimes things will not relli happen as we expected in such a way.. but maybe GOD just want to test us,which path and which decision are we heading to..because one yes or one no, will make a whole lot difference to our life.. Thus, think before we act,be true to yourself, & never do forget to pray and seek help from God..

P.S.: credits to Uncle Azri, Encik Ikmal Hisham (for accepting me), & to my one and only MUM & DAD who had done so many sacrifice for me, Zairis Shahnum & Ahmad Yusri .. also,not forgetting to my teammates at HR unit, Kak Ina, Kak Su & Abg Zul, and again, others as well :)

how to forget someone and move on?

1. Cry baby cry it out LOUD for once and for all. it's okay to let it out, also you can write, share it with someone that would not betray you say, your sister?
2. keep yourself busy. Do chores ,homeworks, find a thing to do. this can draw your focus on doing something else rather than mourning over your break up.
3. Hang out with your friends. Friends can liften up your mood and support you during this kind of hard time because that is what do friends do.
4. stay away from that person. seriously, you might act up beyond what you thought like hooking up back with him/her or throwing a vase to that person.
5. Last but not least,channel your revenge by improving yourself in your appearance aspects, skills or even your feeling towards that person. Scream to him/her in silence that you had supa relli moved on .

My last advice is, please.Never screw up the time of your life over something unworthy like the person who dumped you or you dumped. YOUR life is just once, make the best of it. adios :)

happy befday adam

Might have be a very bad idea of doing tuition. The feedback was like sloth.. which is soooo devastating -___- but anw, I manage to get a BIG hit on my sales.. today tok is still undergoing his surgical procedures .. which initiated last night but still unconscious.. tok was confirmed to have kidney failure yesterday after making his medical check up as suggested by ayah.. he threw up roughly 11 times per day for 4 days in a row and excreted anything dat goes in even mineral water! He looked extremely pale and skinny than before… I have to say that he is sure a very strong man for he is able to walk and entertained visitors who came over to visit him while he was still attached to the tubing thingy aiding his energy. ( I dunno what is it called) he relli didn’t hve to do all that though , he still performed courtesy to others..

p.s.- hppy 15^th befday to my brader Ahmad Adam on JAN 17

vision

okay..so this happend to be my VERY first blog.. after so many years of yearning to have one actually but so scared if i would not be able to give commitment to it , i finally decided to make it happen this year. im hoping and eyeing for my blog for the next ten years to be still updated from time to time .. this blog i have to say that i thank to all of the respected individuals significantly who foster me to do blogging..(sounds weird but i greatly gratified them ! ) so, i hereby ,listing all of my plannings for this blog.. but im not hoping or expecting anyone to read.i solely do this for self-satisfaction, and also to help myself to see my pace of life,knowledge and wise.. ok enuf wif ol those Einsteins-words-of-quotation -like. let's just get it straight to the point.. ok my future blog of this WILL consist of..


food & places-this includes home recipes, places for you to go if ur on go to smewhere,..


entertainment-majorly on musics, tv shows, movies, books,fashions,..


life & health- relationships, advices, other people's stories ,diet,..


religion and inspiration - quotations, verses,..


knowledge & career - jobs, studies, courses,..


general - wonders of the world, people, wars,...


so,those are my planning. i know by this, wether i will be having readers or not, i will have an obligation to keep myself updated to current issues and to keep on filling informative informations to my blog. hope to blog again soon xoxo

year taken : 1997
in picture : me at five